Its Sunday morning! Tomorrow I will wake up and get dressed, put a little makeup on, attempt to find a pair of pants that fit, and head on out to WORK!
Its bitter sweet. I NEED to go to work: Financially and Mental Health speaking. But I love my girls, and will miss them like crazy.
On one hand, I am looking forward to getting out of the house and using my brain and hanging with my friends and doing all kinds of *Accounting Talk*...you know: Debits, Credits, Journal Entries, Reconciliations, Capitalization, Amortization, and all that Jazz.
On the other hand, everytime I look at Audrey, I tear up. I will definatly miss my girls. I can't beleive that Audrey is headed to 4 months old already, and my Brynn will be 2 in a matter of 3 weeks. It feels like life is slipping past me and I can't keep up.
But, the good news is that I have done this "back to work" thing before, and I know what to expect:
Tomorrow, I will wake up and get ready. Chad will be doing the drop off so I will leave before them. And I will go to kiss my girls goodbye and I will cry. I will prob have a good cry in the car on my way to work as I listen to Bob and Sheri on the Radio, chances are good I will even blubber a bit to myself as I cry alone in the car on my way down to work...I will guess the crying will last until I hit the freeway.
Then, when I get to work, I will be fine and happy...I will be so excited to see my work friends and talk about my girls, put pictures up of my girls all over my cube and find out how everyone is doing.
Then, I will go into the pumping room and prob have another good cry as I pump because I will long for Audreys sweet tiny body to be in my arms nursing rather than the cold, hard pulling plastic.
When work is done, I will rush home and pick them up and give them extra kisses and snuggles and play with them and nurse like crazy and just take them both in as much as I can. This is why working works for me. I really do beleive that I am a much more resfreshed mommy at the end of the day when I go to work. If that makes sense.
The best news is that I opted to come back 2 weeks early but on a Part time basis (everyother day) so I can ease myself back in.
Its been a good 4.5 months. There have been ups and downs and in betweens. So here I go! Wish me luck!
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2 comments:
Good Luck! I will be there soon enough also - only 8 weeks off for me.
Lots of luck! You're right, you will do great!
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