Pretty Little Packaging...

So, I have a new obsession. Bento Boxes.

In Hawaii a Bento Box is a pre-packaged meal that you can buy like at 711 or the grocery store like this

So to me, that is a Bento...btw: in looking for a picture...I am now starving and craving Local Hawaiian food! yummers. I digress.

But, I was seeking out inspiration for school lunches when Brynn starts preschool next month, and someone suggested a Bento Box.

Apparently a Bento Box is like ultra cute Tupperware! Its basically like a food container that you can divide with your food items...Iam having a hard time explaining. But there are blogs dedicated to the art of Bento Box lunches for kids. I really like this one.

It really gave me some great ideas for putting together some great healthy balanced lunches for Brynn.

I also found the idea on that blog to make muffins with all the fixins, meaning like corn muffins with cheese and meat. SO EASY! That way I can make them ahead of time and throw them in there and its kinda like a fun little sandwich!

So, in my research, I somehow ordered $30 worth of bento box supplies....after I ordered, I was like "how did that happen" I swear these boxes are only like $2 each max. But then I remembered I ordered like 5 of everything...so there you go.

Here it is isn't it cute!!

And here is my FIRST BENTO!!! That muffin is made out of Bisquick turkey and cheese. I will give it to her tomorrow and see if its Brynn Approved lunch. We will see, there is a high probability that it will end up on the floor. I will let you know

Clothes Clothes Clothes....

So, I decided to go through the girls clothes today.

I came to the realization that both of my girls have WAY too much clothing.


Here is the thing:

Audrey...needs one footed sleeper PER DAY that equals 7. Thats it. I am way too lazy of a mom to dress her in actual outfits heaven forbid dresses. Yet, I find myself keeping all of these outfit around on the off chance that one day I will put her in these outfits. But I know I wont. Its just not realistic or functional for me or her. She doesnt want to sit around in a Hawaiian Print Halter top with ruffled jeans, and a faux fur hooded jacket...she wants to hang out it fleece footed Jammies.

Brynn...needs one pair of jammies and one outfit PER DAY. Thats 7 pants/shorts/shirt and 7 sets of Jammies. And a couple jackets and some socks.....and okay, maybe a couple dresses for parties and such....anything else is not funtional.

I am perfectly capable of realizing this so then WHY do I find myself holding onto all these outfits, fluffy dresses, baby overalls (seriously, a baby in overalls: why?), and jean jackets. I am not the kind of mommy that will ever dress my kids in these really really cute outfits. But I know I just wont.

I am about to put Brynn down for a nap...but I think, when she wakes I am going to get my girls clothes down to a MINIMUM...this is just way too much. I hope I can stick to this new found minimalism....

27 Years...

Today marks the 27th anniversary of the day (as she puts it) my moms life ended.

She went into the Hospital to have a baby, first came me, then, 5 minutes later, MUCH to her surprise, out came another little baby girl.

Can you imagine?

BTW: some might be hurt if their mom told them this, but I am not...you have to know my mom to get it, and to be quite honest. I totally believe her. She had a 18 month old, and twin newborns. You think I am bitching about how stressed I am...can you imagine?

Today my plan is to try to get out of the house. I actually got out of the house earlier for a Latte. Baby steps. The problem is that I am limited to where I can go because Brynn is getting over a cold. So I don't want to be "that mom" that takes their sick kid out to spread the yucky germs across the land.

So maybe just a quick drive in at In n Out Burger, as a friend suggested.

I did something really funny to by Husband last night...first let me say that Chad is a *pick up a gift from the gas station on my way home* kind of guy. last year I got Yellow Post It Notes for me birthday...seriously....I wish I was joking.

So last night I said "Babe, you know what would make me REALLY happy tomorrow for my bday? I want to open my gift before I even get out of bed, so when you wake up, just bring me my gift!"

Now, I did this knowing he hasn't got me crap yet, nor has he even thought about it...I just wanted to watch him squirm! But he caught on and we laughed about it.

So, if anyone reads this...please have a glass of wine tonight and lets all celebrate the day my moms life ended (figuratively speaking) and mine began! :-)

goals for the week.

Okay, I had to abruptly end my previous post because boobie duty called.

I find that having a bunch of little goals helps me get back on track, so this week I aspire to:

1) not eat after 6pm (this is really easy for me)
2) Drink more water. (this is a bit more difficult with so much distraction)
3) stay within my point limit everyday....save flex points for super bowl sunday (although, I think that is actually a new week since I weigh in on Fridays but, whatever)
4) get some activity in everyday.
5) Stay off the damn computer.

• I will give myself 15 minutes in the morning to check in on my regular round of sites (FB, TM, blogger, email) and then 15 minutes in the afternoon. Once Chad gets home, we have already decided neither of us should go on until the girls are in bed (7pm) I think its atainable....

Here we go! and I promise I am turning this thing off and putting it away for the day....after I check up on Facebook one more time ;)

Bad weekend for a diet.

YIKES!

I need to do some confessing...

Thursday Night: I went out with my friend Jen to a moms night out with her mothers group...its was a CHOCOLATE fondue night...I definatly gorged on a butt load of chocolate

Friday Night: FIRST: I thought I would bake my bday cake for the next day....when it looked like the cake was a little burnt, I went ahead and ate a big ol piece (no use just throwing the whole thing out right?) Then, I went out for sushi and drinks with friends....

Saturday: My Birthday Party: Complete with chips and Guac, jalepeno poppers, chocolate cake and rum....nuff said.

Sunday: Left overs of the above.


Today is a new day right???

Brynnisms....

With Brynns ever expanding vocabulary, I have a feeling 2009 will be filled with many new Brynnisms...toddlerspeak, if you will.

Questions:
Brynns new thing is questions. all.day.long.

"Mommy! Wha-a you DO-in?"

Seriously, I hear this one all day. Unfortunatly, the answer is usually "Cleaning, what are you doing?"

"Where we/you goin?"

This one is usually only in the morning when she can tell Chad is getting ready to go.


"Allison"

Yesterday, we went over to Macys housefor a play date...Brynn and Macy have been BFFs since like 4 months old. They do call each other by name. Actually, Brynn will request "Macy" on a regular basis. But for whatever reason, yesterday they girls where calling each other "Allison" Macy started it and then Brynn picked it up. It was so odd. Allie (Macys mom) and I couldnt figure out WHO is Allison....neither of the girls know an Allison....

"Ow-sai?"

Outside. Brynn knows that Outside requires shoes and lately, a hat. So yesterday afternoon, Brynn was just wearing a shirt and nothing else. And she went over to the front door and put her hand on the knob.

Brynn: "Ow-sai?"
Mommy: "We need to stay inside right now"

So she goes and grabs two sepereate shoes. One strappy sandle number and one tennis shoe and Brings it over for me to put on her feet. So I comply. So now she is walking around with one sandal and one tennis shoe. She walks half naked over to the door knob

Brynn: "Ow-sai? Go?"
Mommy: "I am sorry Brynn, we cant go outside its cold!"

She then finds a beenie hat and brings it over for me to put on her head. I again comply. She now walks half naked with two different shoes on and a beenie hat over to the door knob and looks at me hopefully.

Brynn: "Ow-sai? Go?"
Mommy: "Oh Brynn, I am so sorry, its raining right now, everything is WET, we have to stay inside"
Brynn: "ugh"

But just the site of her with her naked Booty, and those unmatched shoes and too small of a hat on was priceless.....

I found a place for my $300

So remember how my hospital bill came in $300 cheaper than I had anticipated?

Well, I found a place for it.

So I am driving along the freeway yesterday, prob going 70-ish, and BAM I hit something out of no where. I look behind me and see a BIG.ASS.ROCK. Like seriously this thing is the size of my head!

I couldnt believe it! I was so freaked out, but thankful that I hadnt lost control of my car. When I got to my destination, I realized that I had totally busted, not only my tire, but my Alloy rim as well. Ugh.

And lucky me, since our car is so new (2007) you can really only get the rim at select places. So, I am pretty sure I can kiss that $300 good bye. But here is the thing. I am not getting paid right now, I dont HAVE 300 sitting in my checking account NOT already accounted for. But, I DO have savings, so thats good.

But here is the thing about me....I am slightly type A when it comes to money. I dont think its the *worst* trait to have. As a result of it, we do live our lives pretty stress free, we dont have alot of debt, maybe 1K on my CC. Anywho. I digress.

Due to my slight type A....when unexpected expenses come in, even if I have the money to pay for it. I start to panic. Last night I lay in bed and start to think about the 300 and the ripple effect its going to have, and all the other unexpected expenses that are coming my way (I am CONVINCED they come in threes) and how I am going to cover them without depleting my savings......

So what I am going to do to calm myself down is sit down and map out every expense I have until I go back to work and do a little spreadsheet. That way I know that I have everything covered and I can sleep at night.

So anyways, thats my luck.....save a little spend alot.

At least I get a shiny new rim out of the deal right? And, I do have to add, I would MUCH rather be dealing with paying for a new rim and tire than dealing with a car accident with EASILY could have happened dur to said rock.

35 Little Words.

Well Kiddos, today was a day that I believe shall live in History forever. Today the 44th President of the United States, the first African American President Barack Obama, said 35 little words that make up the Oath of Office and became the new leader of our country.

If you are wondering what you where doing during this historical moment so you can tell your kids (my future grand babies, which BTW: I hope to have alot of grandbabies) here you go:

Brynn my sweet, I put you down for a nap, which was a good thing for mommy because I doubt I would have been able to watch it had you been awake. If you were awake, the Elmo demands would have been endless.

Audrey my love, you were doing great hanging with mommy until you had the biggest blowout diaper I have ever seen in my whole life! Once I got you all cleaned up, I realized I had no extra clothes for you because all the clothes where in Brynns room. So you spent the inauguration having naked tummy time until sissy woke up. But I have to admit, you really enjoyed it!

I hope some day to be able to explain to you the great significance of this day. What it meant for our country and I hope I can show you what a great place America is, and what it means to be proud that you are an American. Today was a great day for our country.

Here is my favorite part of the speech, at least the part that I got to watch, because my beautiful Brynn woke up and immediately demanded that the TV either be turned off or Elmo be provided.

"The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness."

Let us hope that this is a new beginning for us, and that we as a nation can join together and make this America a better place for you my little sweet Brynn and Audrey to grow up and raise your own babies in.....did I mention: LOTS of babies ;)

TESTING

I am trying something out....If you click on the picture? Can you read this???

Just another benefit of birthing naturally.

So, I have discovered yet another benefit of birthing naturally.

Just a little background, for those who dont know.

With my first labor, I used one dose of Fentanyl (I finally learned how to spell it correctly), which BTW is a huge CROCK, because 1) It doesnt take away the pain and 2) it just makes you pass out between contractions, so when the pain does come back, you cannot get a grip on yourself and actually handle the contraction.

With Audreys labor/Delivery, I went completely drug free (yipee!)

SO, I got my hospital visit bill in the mail today and it was almost $300 CHEAPER than my delivery with Brynn, and my medical plan has not changed!

Not that I have that $300 just sitting NOT being used, but if I did, I would take myself out to dinner and a movie, and buy a nice outfit, and maybe a new wallet, I really need one.

Anyways, just had to share!

Weigh in

So, in an effort to maintain my accountability...I have to share both my losses and gains.

I gained 3lbs this week. But Its okay. Since I lost 11lbs last week, I think partially due to the flu, it really doesnt suprise me.

But I am not too bummed about it, becuase I know I ate good and even got active this week, so I actually feel pretty good about myself in the body category.

SO, now to start a new week!

Can Someone Tell Me....

Can someone tell me how it is possible for me to do laundry that includes 6 different pairs of socks and only end up with 6 single socks, none of which match......hmmmm, I think I have a sock monster in there....

as Brynn says "where didi go?"

btw: I am on a self prescribed computer break (only computer to check email), but I couldn't help not posting this one *wink*

Big Sigh

Is it really only Tuesday? Like seriously? Tues-day as in the second day of the work week?

Why do I suck at this SAHM thing SO BAD? Like really its only been 2 days....one of which Brynn was at the sitter, so why I am so drained already?

Its just one thing after the other with this girl....she doesnt know WHAT she wants. Right now, she is in her room to take a nap...but She is yelling/talking to me or her baby dolls...I can hear the room being rearranged up there.

The good news is that Audrey is just a doll lately. She is so easy. I have been laying her in her bed awake, just give her a little booty pat and she is out!

Brynn on the other hand is taking me for a ride. There are bits of bell pepper spread over every surface of my home (she loves Bell pepper, calls them apples), a bunch of uncooked pasta on the floor, and it was angel hair pasta, so its so hard to pick up. Lets see what else. (***looks around the room***)

ugh, I am to tired to type....

*Slight* Nervous Breakdown.

Yesterday I had a *slight* nervous breakdown. And I withheld myself from blogging about it in fear I would post something I would regret ;)

I had a rough week. A Rough and lonely week.

Let me set this up for you:

After spending the holiday week in Del Mar with my family, lots of company of family (family that I *want* to be with) and people wanting to hold/play with my babies. Even though they would hand over the kiddos the moment either one would make a peep, it was still nice to have people to entertain Brynn while I nursed or hold Audrey so I could eat sitting down.

So to go from that to coming home was a bit of culture shock.

I had the flu on Sat/Sun/Mon, so nothing was done as far as unpacking, settling in.

Chad worked late hours mon-fri, he usually has Friday off, so not only was he working later, but he wasnt home on Friday. He also went Skiing on Sat, so I had a 6 day work week, so to speak.

I dislocated Brynns elbow on one of the days, I already forget, its all a blur.

Audrey HATES her car seat. I mean I have never seen a baby hate a car seat as much as Audrey hates her car seat. It doesnt matter if its in a stroller, on the ground, in the car, moving, not moving, warm/cool/jiggling/motionless/radio on/radio off that girl will be SCREAMING bloody murder in it. So needless to say, trips out of the house, even just a walk around the block are a cause of much anxiety for me.

Audrey had an appt, blood draw, heel prick, immunizations during the week (again, dont know what days these all went down)...THAT friggin sucked.

I also have this huge.ass.kitchen. we got for Brynn (and *will* be getting rid of) sitting in my diningroom and taking up so much space we have loss use of our dining table. So my house is SO not feng shue (sp?)

okay....now that I have given you background....................

on the 6th day of the week, saturday, Chad left to go skiing at about 5am. I woke up Sat morning, got the girls downstairs, Brynn was running around naked ripping the house apart like a crazy monkey child, Audrey was her usual newborn self. I took one more sip of my now cold coffee, I looked around at my messy house, and all the unfinished work that i need to do and the children that I need to take care of like I do EVERY.FRICKIN.DAY. and I lost it, I completely lost control and just released what I had been holding in all week.

At that same moment Chad called me (poor guy) to see how my day was going, and that REALLY put me over the edge, so I was able to put into words (blubbering, but words nonetheless) what I was feeling.

I am burnt out beyond recognition. I am lonely and feel isolated. I have no help. I haven't had a real adult conversation all week, and I am CRAVING interaction with people....so much so I find myself looking forward to going back to work so I can use my brain. I am so tired of taking care of my kids, which sounds horrible, but its true. I just need a break, to be alone, with out nursing, or doing bathroom duty, or fixing meals/snacks, or cleaning up the endless mess, or answering ELMO requests, or anything like that for JUST A BIT.

Its not that I dont love my children or enjoy playing/taking care of them....its just after 6 days of going at it alone....I just want to beable to say "can you take this kid while I go (insert activity here)?"...but its not an option....its never an option....its all me all the time. I get about 10 minutes of conversation with my husband when he comes home from work after the girls are in bed and then he is off to watch TV or play some computer game, and I am off to bed.

I am so sick of my house, but I am slightly paralyzed at home with a baby who cannot stand her carseat, and a toddler who is a pain in the ass to go places with.

I miss my mommy. I miss my sisters. I miss that feeling of *home* I get from being with my family. I have no family here. I have GREAT friends, but its just not the same. I am so jealous of those people that have their family close by and seem to hang out with them on a regular basis doing family things. My daughters will never know their extended family like that. They will never be as close to their grandparents/cousins/aunties.

I am so burnt out and it breaks my heart. I want to beable to enjoy my time with my girls before I go back to work, but after this last week.....its not feeling that way. I am not happy play mommy, I am burnt out as sh** mommy.

okay, it wasnt all gloom and doom last week. There were those sweet moments cuddling with both girls, and sweet audrey coos and a-goos, audrey is so close to rolling over its scary....and Brynn was cracking me up with her shananigans, I will admit that...

But sat morning all I was thinking of was another day. alone. at home. taking care of children. doing laundry. cleaning up messes. by myself.

So that was my nervous breakdown. I let it out.....and I let it out again when Chad got home. But today is a new day. Chad is home to help, we are going to get that damn kitchen out of here. We are going to get caught up so that next week, will be, a bit better, so I can enjoy my girls and be the best mommy I can be.

Operation Baby Rescue and cuteness...

Wheres Brynn??? (or "where Binn?" as Brynn says)

Here she is!

Saving Her Precious "bebe"

And some Audrey cute-ness....I souped up the picture using picnik.com...what do you think? Too much?

Thats Alotta Wattah!

Oops....you wont believe this. I weighed in today.

In 9 days I lost ELEVEN lbs. Well actually it was 8 days since its only 6:30am on the 9th day...but still. Oops.

Well, I am happy that the scale came down, but i am a bit concerned at the amount. But I think a few things happened.

1) Over the Holidays I ate a MASS amount of food. And maybe I was retaining a TON of water.
2) I had the Flu. I always loose a bit of weight when I get sick. So I anticipate gaining a bit back now that I am better. But lets hope for just maintaining.

Anyways, I would be lieing if I didn't say I was happy to shave that amount off...I KNOW its not fat, my clothes do feel loose-er but not 11lbs loose. And my face looks the same (usually that's the first place I notice the weight, right at the jaw ling).

But I still have a LONG way to go 30 lbs to my *perfect* weight 20 to my prepreg weight. I hope to lose 1-2lbs a week from here on out. And I have 7 weeks left of Maternity leave so hopefully I can fit in the bigger of my work clothes.

Silent Laughter

So last night before Audreys bath...she was just in her diaper and I was blowing bubbles on her belly and tickling her ribs. She had the BIGGEST open mouth smile and was laughing silently...like it was just alot of breathing like she was laughing and a little cooing in there and she was swaying her head back and forth as if she was cracking up...but no sound coming out of her mouth. No Belly Laughs yet.

OMG it made me so happy and my cheeks where hurting from smiling and laughing with her.

Those are the moments I love so much...the ones that make it all worth it....I love my girls so much. Its amazing how much love can come from being a mommy.

I cant wait for belly laughs...

How to blow a diet...by Kristin.

Yes, I knew it....I knew the blood draw/immunization would do it and it did. I.BLEW.IT.

Yesterday, on the way to the shots, Audrey was just so fussy all morning, and I was so nervous about the needles and the screams. And I was hungry....dammit. So I pulled into McD and got a Egg McMuffin and a hash browns...ugh. A Whopping 14 points....it wasnt even 10am yet. Doh!

oh and thats not all people. thats not all.

then, after the appt.....I guess I still have the flu, because I had some serious nausea sessions in the bathroom, and I was so sick I had the worst headache...ouchie mama.

I took a nap and when I woke up I felt alot better but I just felt so weak and shakey....I had to go pick Brynn up at the sitters...I decided I needed to eat something substantial. So I got a personal pan pizza at the pizza hut drive through....a whopping 14 points!

So my two trips through fast food nation along with the normal food I ate at home...I went 11 points over my allwance...but that comes out of my weekly bonus points. And I DID go on a short walk with my luxury double stroller yesterday. So i guess it could have been worse right?

What an idiot I am...I weigh in tomorrow and I blow it. I hope it doesnt set me back too far. CRAP.

But I am not going to beat myself up too much...yesterday was a crappy day....with needles and nausea and migrains....

My innocent baby girl had 4 needle pokes and a blood draw...the worse part was that stupid rubber band they had to wrap around her arm 4X to find a vein. But the nurse I had WAS really good at what she did. And I knew it had to be done. She is fine by the way. But the Dr said I need to keep taking my prenatal...oops!

DH went shoppign yesterday so I am stocked up on more healthy options. So today should go much better! I will let you know what my weight loss(or gain) is tomorrow!

I cheated...

I stepped on the scale this morning...I dont weight in until friday.....but I am just feeling so good lately...like "clensed" (sp?) in a way...so i wanted to see if it was weight.

I don't want to say how much (dont want to count my chickens) but I will say that I am down on the scale already (YIPEEEE) but, I can still blow it...and it doesnt take much time for me to blow it....all it takes is panic-attack-while-on-the-road-with-the-girls-screaming-in-their-car-seats and I will pull into the nearest JITB and order a cibata whatever with curly fries and buttermilk sauce. (YUM!) oh, and a diet coke, of course.

So I need to have a game plan to not blow it the rest of the week.

I have both girls today, so as long as I dont get gutsy and head out of the house...chances are I am staying put. And there is NO bad food here that I can prepare easily...so if I stay home, its easy.

Wednesday is shot day at our house, so I have to take both girls to get needle pokes....talk about nightmare. So, there is a slight risk there. There is an In-N-Out and McD's on my way there. I should send them my photo to ask them not to serve this lady....that might work....damn and there is a coffee stand in front of the Dr office with this HUGE ASS COOKIES....crap. I will make sure I have some gum in my mouth on my way in.

Thursday and Friday I am home with the girls too....but I will need to maybe cut my internet so I dont *accidentally* order pizza from Dominos.

oh, and I get my blurb book today for 2008...I cannot WAIT!!! I am seriously checking the tracking number ever hour or so. I paid $30 for overnight shipping, because I just have.no.patience...so I guess that will buy me some time to distract myself from JUNK FOOD.

I hope I can keep this up! In the past times I have done WW (the first time & after Brynn was born) I always loose 5lbs of water weight the first week. So, we will seeeeeeee.

Why is pee such a challenge?

Warning: This post is about potty talk (if you cant tell by my title) so you may not be interested in the following.


Brynn has been going #2 on the potty consistently for 3 weeks now. I have not missed those poopy diapers...

but for whatever reason...pee is a whole nother story.

I have never wanted hard wood floors until I started potty training LOL! today I put Brynn in her panties again.

we had one successful bathroom trip with her asking to go potty...she went #1 and #2...

that was followed by 3 pee panties in a row....until I just let her run around naked.

Actually I know why pee is more of a challenge: Brynn has less warning and less control over the pee. So when its time it just goes...or flows ;)

She DOES know how to stop the flow and finish up on the potty, so I guess the pee will just take time.

BTW: Brynns booty looks so damn cute in her panties

operation elimination...

one of my other goals is to eliminate the things never used/touched that just sit there taking up space. Everyday (well as often as I can) and take 2 garbage bags...one for trash that I cant donate (like those candles I burned once and never lit again...who can have candle light with a toddler?) and one for donation.

today, I went through the bottles...our new rule with brynn is only bottles at home, no more bottles in the car/shopping/etc. so I recycled some old bottles. I also went through a book case and donated some cookbooks I never used (cause seriously, I dont cook like that)...and also some old candles.

then audrey woke up, so that was that... next stop is the magazines in the bathroom (aka chads office)

So Far So Good...

So far so good...

its been 4 days, and so far I have maintained my "eating right" mind set.

Today, I think I have the flu. I am so achy all over, I can barely keep my eyes open, I have been in bed all day only up to drink fluids.

I had to force feed myself Oatmeal, a banana and a coffee mug of soup for fear that it will affect my milk supply.

Anywho...I dont weigh in until Friday...so I still have 4-5 days that i could possibly blow it.

heres hopeing I can keep myself together.

happy new year....joining the herd

I did it.

This year was the first year that I joined the millions of Americans and resolved to lose weight. Lets just hope that I dont "stay with the pack" and quit in a few weeks.

I bit the bullet and signed up for Weight Watchers online. This really is the biggest I have ever been, and while I *did* just.have.a.baby. I need to stop eating like a pregnant woman.

I think every person who needs to lose weight has a point that they realize that they arent as thin as they think they are.....its hard to explain. But I guess what I am trying to say is I *think/hope/pray* that I have come to the place that I am ready.

I was proofing my blurb book which is essentially 2008 in review and I should have titled it "watch Kristin get fat in 2008" because you can see me get bigger and bigger. And when I look at pictures of Kristin in November/December I recognize my face, my clothes, my hair...but I am not in the right body...if that makes sense. Like I didnt recognize the body that I was in, like thats not how I am supposed to look. I lost 25 lbs immediatly after birth 2 months ago, but since then, I have not lost any weight. Even with Audrey sucking me dry everyday...the calories I am intaking is way more than I need.

I want to look like Jan 08 Kristin. SO I hope that my 2009 book is "watch Kristin get thinner in 09" but lets hope it doesnt take all year...I *do* have a britney concert in April, I would like to look somewhat hot for ;)

Anywho....so here I am embarking on my journey...wish me luck.