I don't understand...

****warning: serious post ahead******

I have to tell you about someone special....she is beautiful, kind, and just one of those people who lights up a room when they walk in, everyone just perks up a bit. She has been there for me when I needed her to give me a shoulder to cry on when I needed it. I can always count on her for a good laugh and yummy food.

She is my aunt Holly.

She is 47 years old.

She has cancer.

For the 4th time.


On her 40th birthday she had her first Mammogram. I remember the day clearly because they gave her a rose and she came to my work to give it to me with her son (who was in 8th grade at the time)....well, it was at her first mammogram that they discovered she had breast cancer. okay. very scary, but people get breast cancer all the time, if caught early its a very survivlable thing...

Long-painful-difficult story short.

My beautiful, loving aunt has had not one, not two, not even three, but FOUR rounds of cancer. Two types of cancer: Breast (two rounds) and skin cancer of the rectum (two rounds)

and now its in her lymph nodes. Its been a long 7 years.


I don't understand cancer. I just don't. why her? Why now? She is so young, her children are so young. Why? Why? WHY?

Its not like a heart attack where you spend your life eating like crap and not treating your body right...
Its not like psoriasis of the liver where you drink too much and kill your liver...

Its not a disease you catch...

It just comes to you...any time, anywhere...it seems like there is really no way to prevent it.

I am so terrified right now, I have never been more afraid in my life.

Please, if any of you out there Pray, please pray as hard as you can for my aunt Holly and her family. If you have a prayer list, please add her to it. Ask everyone you know to pray for her.

If you don't pray, please just think positive thoughts for her.

Dear God, please...don't take her away from me...I can't imagine a world without her in it...