The Fog Has Lifted...

It is 5:30pm....I have been home with both girls all day (which started at 6 this morning after a rough night, I might add) and I have not cried all day, I have not lost my temper all day, nor have I day dreamed about running away to Canada and changing my name.

I actually feel....dare I say it? NORMAL?

I was able to put Brynn down for a nap, I was able to put Audrey down for a nap not in my arms which meant I had a 2 hour period where my body was not occupied by another human being.

I was able to feed 3 solid meals to Brynn and snacks (and bottles)

I even kept my cool when Brynn peed through 5 pairs of panites and on the floor.

I was even able to get both girls in the bath together and then got them dried and dressed.

I think I might be getting the hang of this...WOW!

Although I do have to confess Brynn watched 2 hours of TV today with Sesame Street and her favorite Elmo DVD(does anyone know how to break an elmo addiction)anyways, this is very exciting for me!

I remember when Brynn was born it was a HUGE adjustment...I honestly didnt start feeling *normal* until she was 3 months old.

I was talking to a RL friend of mine yesterday and she asked me if I could go back, would I have spaced it out more and I thought about it, and I said No.

I think that 2 kids is just freaking ridiculously difficult, and there is just no "easy" time to do it.
Even if she was like 3 when I had Audrey, eh, I still think it would be a challenge.

Maybe it would be nice to have been OUT of diapers before adding another box of diapers to the list but there is no gaurantee when your toddler would be ready KWIM?

I guess my answer is a little skewed because I love Audrey so so so much...BOTH girls are my world.

And now that they are here, I wouldnt want to change when I had them because then they wouldnt be them...if that makes sense. It took us 10 months to conceive Brynn and as hard as it was to wait that long to get pregnant, I am happy it happened when it did because it was Brynn...not sure if this is making sense or not.